A paste in my mouth. Wallpaper paste. I'm dealing with it all...and it's like eating a great serving of wallpaper paste. I just have to keep eating, not throw up, and get ready to pass it all along...paying the plumber, water company, and for my toilet paper the whole time.

I haven't posted in a long time because my life is this way right now. My home computer melted down a couple of months back, leaving me with no access to my email, websites, or the ability to log on here at DavidRogerson.com 

Okay.

So, I have been exercising my patience, and realizing the next couple of years are going to be trying to enjoy the small daily joys, keeping it all in perspective, remembering I am living my childhood/young adulthood dreams every moment. I'm going to get the IRS crammed up my ass, going to find out all about my DTI (debt to income ratio) and become much too intimate with my bookkeeper, and keep putting out fires before I get my system of managing my life worked-out.

And...it's okay.

Those of you who know what's up with me, and are supporting me with love are much appreciated. Those that don't know what's up, well, some of you might just be on a "time-out" or "need to know" basis.

There is a quiet that comes with that last statement.

It's nice.

It's nice to not have to chase people anymore, or worry about keeping up with those that don't have the time to keep up with me. We all have a life that I hope we are all in hot pursuit of. If I see ya, I'll see ya. If it's cool, it's cool...if it ain't, it's still cool. I just am not worried anymore, or concerned about the things that take me out of the center of my picture.

Just gonna keep shoveling. 

The paste.

When I see people my age who haven't accepted their demons, forgiven those that betrayed them, written off uncollectable debts...I feel sad for them. The only way to forgive yourself, and move on..is to FORGIVE YOURSELF, and MOVE ON. My life kind of uninstalled itself this year...and if I don't LOVE something...it's not getting reinstalled.

The air is still, the sun warms everything, and my puppy is guarding me against the new housekeeper who is getting everything ready for my BIG installation...my lady is moving in, and my life starts anew.

DR version 2.0

So, just for today...I will walk my puppy, finish my chores, go to the city to deal with a traffic ticket...work on forgiving myself, and moving on.